Decree; i.e. Who The Fuck Are You?

This was a private blog, where I would come and bitch, basically, about anything and all that was my life at the time. We had been trying, unsuccessfully, for over four years to get pregnant. We did it all. The fertility treatments, the shots, the praying, the procedures, the screaming, the crying, everything. I was pissed. I was negative. I was an asshole. After our 4th and final roller coaster ride on the Fertility Express, we were done, cashed in, broken, tired. It was Christmas Eve 2008 and we were supposed to find out the next day if we were successful. We were at midnight mass and I prayed, hard. I didn't pray for a baby, I just prayed to be put on the right path, to know that all the shit we were going through was worth it. We got our answer the next day. We were supposed to be on the path to adoption. We were excited. We FINALLY felt a little in control, so we got into the adoption pool. This blog then changed a little, there was a little more pep in it's step, a little more hope. Christmas Eve 2009 and we were in the pool for a year, still not picked, but still optimistic. Then in January of 2010, the phone rang, we were chosen. THEN the real roller coaster started. That was almost a year ago and so much has happened. This private, black hole of a blog has been deleted and sitting dormant for a year. This will now be my public blog about being a new parent, an adoptive parent, a music lover, a tattoo lover, a shoe lover, and a bearded hubby who loves his family above all others. Welcome, and enjoy.